"I
am Paul, laden down with the burden of 88 years, yet as straight
as a poker and very little pain. My main worry is my eyesight.
Everybody and everything is a blur. I see only outlines. There
are times when I want to die. The loneliness oppresses me. There
are times when I cover my head with the blankets, not wanting
to face another day.
But
not today! The caregiver from Sisters Care is coming this morning
to take me to the store and then to a coffee shop for a meal.
I look forward to these visits so much. I feel relaxed and at
home with her and I can be myself in her presence. She listens
to me and makes me feel whole and holy."
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"
I have to be so careful moving around the house. My heart isn’t
strong. My bones ache with every step I take.
I
love my family. My home is filled with their energy - one very
reason I want to spend my last days here. My family calls me very
often. I delight in hearing from them. But they have their own
lives to live, and I do not want to burden them.
Tomorrow
I will delight in a shower, and a shampoo, and styling, and lipstick
that makes me feel 5 years younger. My living area will be vacuumed and
dusted, my clothes will be laundered and my meals will be perfect.
Even my poor stumps of legs will feel tender and dainty again
under the spell of the lotions and the massaging! Because tomorrow
Sisters Care will come. Thank You God!" |